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yesterday and thoughts

yesterday:

I woke-up very early, attended to a number of phone calls, missed a film i've been wanting to see, and i was late for my 1st meeting. well, i was there early but i anticipated a backlog in the schedule...so i loitered around the area before heading to the meeting.

in between work, a number of interesting things happened. one of which was that i met someone i have been meaning to discuss with. who? no specifics right? anyway, that person turns out to be really nice...once again, i am amazed.

my day didn't have more than 2 meetings *shock*

monday, wasn't didn't have a hectic schedule but i can say that it was a very productive day. what a good way to start the week right? :)

---> he called...for some reason i'm just not interested to talk to him. why? i don't know, i'm just not.

thoughts:

i miss someone, it's insane, i know i shouldn't...but i still do every now and then. i miss his ways, how he was always there for me, how he just knew when to call or check on me. how the sound of his voice would put a smile on my face no matter how bad things are. him sounding that he's really happy to hear my voice, would make me feel really good-the feeling that you know that just by your presence, another person would become happy...but at the same time, his existence in your life, would make life wonderful to live. i don't want to miss him anymore because i shouldn't.

i miss being excited to be or to talk with someone. I miss it when you're just about to ask them how they are, they ask you first-with so much care you can feel it like a warm embrace. i also miss how a person would (genuinely) value the effort i would exert to do something for them. i miss the 'just because.' i miss the little things that can make me smile. i miss them so much it's sad. unfortunately, i don't get those anymore and i doubt i will anytime soon. i belong to a work-driven environment and people don't really care...no matter how much you care about some of them.

my heart tires easily and i miss it how one person would have the capability of giving it strength when it is slowly getting weak.

am i sad? no.

i don't miss things very often, it is only when i am reminded of them that i do. then again, when i am reminded of the feeling of 'missing' it has a chain reaction effect...but after that, the feeling would slowly linger away i wish it would be gone by the time i wake-up because today is a new day and the start of a new month

i'll end this here

posted by yma @ 04:12