anxious
there's someone i want to see right now but as of the moment, can't. i have so much to say to him. why don't i just call him? it's too impersonal. words are just words. i want to apologize for my mistakes. i'd want him to see the sincerity in my eyes when i say sorry, when i explain myself (something i don't do very often), when i tell him how special he is and that he is beautiful in my eyes. i'd want to say that (to me) he's not at par with anyone because he's on a league of his own. i'm not scared even if i will risk getting hurt because i know that the emotions i have towards this person is real and genuine and strong enough to make me overcome certain things-even pain.for now, i guess i just have to wait...i hope not too long though
if a wall will ever be built or if there already is a wall between us, i'd want to be able to say the things i've been keeping to myself. why do i want to tell him all these things? to let it go? to set it free? to just simply let him know? or just because...
posted by yma @ 19:00
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my friend joey puts perspective into things like these beautifully. :) here, excerpts from something she recently wrote...
"...wait for the one who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. wait for the one who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstances. wait for the one who makes you smile like no one else makes you smile, and when they smile you know they need you. wait for the one who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no make-up on, but appreciates it when you get all dolled up for them. and most of all wait for the one who will put you at the center of thier universe because you know that they're at the center of yours.
the other version...
find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of 'hot.' who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the boy who pursues you, who kisses your forhead, who wants to show you off to the workd when you are in sweats. who holds your hand in front of his friends. who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make-up on and insists on holding you around the waist. the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her'..."
*sniff* i really needed that :) thank you! that really helped me put my thoughts back into perspective. i'm so lucky to have a friend like you. talk to you soon! :)
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