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crazy little thing called love

for the past few weeks, my friend 'vokaluna' and i have been having this on going topic about her 'lovelife.'

this time i am going to write a post inspired by another friend of mine...i'm not mentioning names all i can is that love can turn this girl a little insane...thesaurus please. why? because i say so! :) hehehe!

moving on, here's how the whole thing started. i called her up a few weeks back asking if she'd want me to send pictures of this person she's in a not-quite-relationship with. she refuses to have the photographs sent saying that it will just make her miss him even more. hmm...curious...so i said, 'then i should send you the pix since you miss him!' minutes of persuading her that it would be best to see the recent pictures, she still refused. i've been trying to analyze their setup and relationship for the past year and i'm still boggled by it. i'd ask for the readers opinion but i won't give out details...so again, we will be left with 'hypothetical' answers--which would require even more analysis.

take me for example...i remember that my way of getting over a certain guy i was in-like with when i was 18 years old, was by intoxicating myself with much of him. i'm talking looking at the pictures, recalling conversations, reading text messages/email/notes, looking at all the things he gave me. darn, i even wrote a freaking monologue about that crazy 'intoxication' period. the monologue relays how a girl would put meaning into actions, would read into words, would be downright paranoid by practically everything that involves that particular guy, would feel being both hopeful and hopeless at the same time. did the whole 'intoxicate yourself' strategy work? yes it did...then again there are different factors that contributed to its effectivity. part of the monologue describes how girls would view guys a certain way during the period they are in-like/love with them. the end part of the monologue says that 'too much of everything is a bad thing.' then yeah *snap* and back to reality. i still had a life to live. i also ended the monologue with a note to that particular guy 'it's nice to meet you again.' simply describing that after all the color has been eliminated, you see a better picture of who they are...the person they really are.

dear insane-by-love-friend is probably reading this post right now and is saying 'so what does that have to do with me?!' JUST WAIT! read on...

one time, i had a conversation with my 'myth' he was telling me that falling-in-love sometimes is brought about by a whole package. something like a package of a nicely painted scenario. what he does to determine if it's real or if it's 'getting caught up in the moment,' is by stepping out of the picture for a while. he gives himself time to eliminate the colors and just by seeing her as who she is...since he is no longer looking for a girlfriend, he is looking for a wife--fascinating isn't it?

i am aware that my friend has done that numerous times...and yes, what she's feeling is real. though i am a fan of her and our guy friend...i have to view things from a different perspective. i have to be her friend this time. basically i don't want her to suffer anymore...yes, it is her choice and the decisions to be made about her and that guy are theirs...but that doesn't mean i can't tell her what i think right?

so click here 'There's a Fine, Fine Line' from the Broadway musical 'Avenue Q'

quoting from the synopsis of 'Avenue Q,' that song is sang at the part when
'Meanwhile, Princeton realizes that he is spending so much time with Kate, that he has lost track of his dreams. He breaks up with her, and she wonders whether the relationship was merely a big waste of time (THERE'S A FINE, FINE LINE)'

- similar to what happened to me a few years ago...oh yeah, the drama! am i bitter about that? no, not at all. :) then again, that particular scenario may or may not apply to dear insane-by-love friend.

note to friend: there is a fine line but it really is your decision whether you step forward or backward. whatever your explanation is, your standing is always leaning more towards one side. orayt?

i have yet to know...darn, her relationship with this guy is turning into an on-going teleserye! :P

posted by yma @ 00:45