taking chances
sometimes anchored...sometimes sane
most of the time lost in thoughts but can easily be brought back by contradictions
"I’m taking chances and I’m talking carelessly.
And I am walking backwards into the future, this world is getting too deep."
- abra moore 'taking chances'
ye, i'm still addicted to the 'everything changed' album :)
believe
'She's on every page of your imagination.'
- barrie to peter in 'finding neverland'
for someone who can easily fight back tears when watching films (whilst reminding myself that it-is-just-a-film), i wasn't able to when i watched the film 'finding neverland' last wednesday. why? watch the film if you really want to know! what's with the title? if you really really want to understand this whole post, i repeat, watch the film! ;)
'It is through writing that I'd miss him the least...
The memory of him would accompany me in my solitude. I need not close my eyes to see, for the words would be like the stars--stars that have long gone but the reflection of their past is still seen on this planet. Though memories, like stars, are unreachable and no longer existent, what's left of it is just as captivating as it was when they were just a few steps away.'- something i wrote some time ago
the winner
last thursday (april 7), i attended two events with my sister-the launch of the canon eos 350d and the 24/7 nocturnal awards.
canon launch- 1st event i went to that night. it was a photographers party...so i barely knew anyone there except for the ladies from the canon marketing team, my sister, and my photographer friend.
- the theme of the event was 'summer'
- musical guests : 10 piece percussion group and a few other bands
- the event had a raffle, food and drinks, freebies etc
- i was only able to stay until the end of the set of the percussion group
thoughts:great music but no one seemed to get into the groove. yes, my friend and i were sooo wanting to move to the beats but we didn't-if we did, we'd be the only silly pair dancing. the setup and the outfit of the performers and the marketing group matched the theme. i was slightly over dressed for the event :) hehehe most of the attendees were umm...stiff? some of the girls were looking for an artist friend of mine-i wonder why! :) i wanted to win the raffle but had to leave before they drew the winners
news after the event:i won the raffle! hahaha!!! BUT since i was no longer there, they had to draw another winner. the canon lady who told me, said that she wasn't sure if she should have told me or not but she also said i was lucky. hmm...am i really? so, i won but since i wasn't there, another person became the winner (lucky?!). then again, i'm glad that she told me. i still feel like a winner! hahaha! i did say that i wanted to win the raffle...i should have specified that i wanted to win the raffle so that i can take home the prize!
24/7 nocturnal awards- 2nd and last event i attended that night. it was the first ever 'nocturnal awards'
- the setup was pretty grand for a small event
- it was a glam award type...very nice! *picture picture*
- the founders of 24/7 are such gracious hosts
how it went:i was slightly underdressed-but it's ok! :) i knew more people in this event-that's always a good thing. i finally met this guy i wanted to meet-not 'cause i like him...more of, i've been curious who he was-i won't explain. :) some people were asking about one of my talented friends-asking where he was (same guy the girls from the other event was looking for). i had to leave midway during the awards proper and ran into a friend in the parking lot...who was underdressed! so, i walked away feeling slightly good about myself and my outfit! then again, he's a guy...so i'm not sure if i can even compare.
after event thoughts (for both events):
- i didn't plan to do a quick change of outfits it between events...so i just wore something that would fall under the 'passing category.' mental note to self: 'don't do that again!'
- if you want to win, stay...even if it means you'd have to endure some things you'd rather not. hahaha!
- some situations remind me how much a fan (of some of my friends) i am. a number of them have 'presence' which is a reason for me to like being around them and makes me proud of the fact that they stand out just by being who they are. especially when they are remembered for who they are and not just as being my friend. :)
wish i may...
it is never easy to deal with something you fear-no amount of preparation is ever enough when it becomes a reality. You could only wish that it never happened...but that's a wish to a past that can't be undone-only made better if granted.
...i wish i might, have this wish i wish tonight
everything changed
ever notice how it is when you're caught up in an emotion...every song you hear either speaks to you or speaks for you? that's how i feel about my latest album purchase, abra moore's 2004 release 'everything changed.'
cranked up volume, speakers blasting, and nostalgia filled an empty room with so much beauty--sadness in it's most beautiful form. yeah it sounds insane of me to speak of music that way. but hey, others cry, laugh, scream or shout, i prefer to keep quiet and listen to music. uh yeah it's pretty much true when they say that one can easily detect a persons state of mind or mood based from the genre or songs they would be listening to at a given time.
lines from my favorite abra moore tracks from the 'everything changed' album:
"Spend all of the days chasing down the answer to the question that we know you'll never find"
"but every once in awhile something's got to bring you back.
and all the stars in the sky can't make you remember why.
who could ever understand? but i do"
- "i do" track #1
"but if you want me to just pretend you didn't mean a thing to me.
deep inside my room i'll hold back the tears that i'll never let you see."
- "if you want me too" #4
"well i'll meet you in the middle and i'll crawl to the edge
and i'll stand there forever just to see if i can
and i'll cry a river as i lay in your bed."
- "melancholy love" #6
cup of tea
i was carrying a mug of piping hot water while going up the stairs. just when i was about to take my final step, my slipper got caught and caused me to trip. i couldn't hang on to the banister because the closest side (to prevent my fall) was the side where i had my mug in hand. to gain balance again, i had to use my elbow which caused the hot water to spill on my hand. i gripped the handle of my mug tightly so i won't drop it. yes, the water was hot, very very hot. i didn't scream, i didn't react violently, i wanted to drink my tea (so badly) and it was my choice to hold on to the mug. besides, i was also thinking about how much water i got from the dispenser just to fill it up-i didn't want to waste the water and i didn't want my effort from walking from the highest floor to the lowest, just to get it, to go to waste either. another reason is that i like the mug a lot, i didn't want to break it. anyway, moving on to the story, i looked into the mug and was glad to see that only a third of the water spilled. so, i went down again to fill it up, made cold water run through my painful hand, then went back upstairs. while typing this, i can still feel the sting from the spill of the hot water but it's ok...because i now know better and i know what to do next to make the sting go away completely.
the end *bow*
note: how smart are you to understand the underlying message found in this post?
rose-colored
'it is when you care about something so much that you tend to view anything that involves it, through rose-colored lenses. when the realization of it's imperfection dawns upon you, you are left with two options: to close your eyes or to open your eyes to the truth.'
my preference will always be the latter- something i recall saying
'those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed.
those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide.'
-rose-colored times by lisa loeb
mimi's emancipation
last song syndrome? maybe...maybe not
'It's a special occasion
Mimi's emancipation
A cause for celebration
I ain't gonna let nobody's drama bother me'
- it's like that by mariah carey
april 1
today, i was able to solve all 40 figures (and made a few more pretty looking figures) of the 4pc puzzle! yey! congratulations to me!!!
...that is sad!
