Aimsworld

k.hudson films

last night:
alex and emma - starmovies
how to lose a guy in 10 days - hbo
-> aired at the same time

i was flipping from one channel to the other. ok...i'm sort of tired of seeing both films already but i still ended up watching them. my reasons for watching...

alex and emma
1. i wasn't paying much attention when i watched it the first time
2. i am amused by the role of emma (reminds me of someone)
3. i like some of the lines in the film

"There are some things that are nothing more than what they are."
-alex and emma

how to lose a guy in 10 days
1. cute story
2. some of the parts could still make me laugh
3. some of the songs in the OST are part of my all-time-favorite-tracks list

mental playlist :
follow you down - gin blossoms
feels like home - chantal kreviazuk
weight of the world - chantal kreviazuk
note: obviously from the ost of 'how to lose a guy in 10 days'

i shall end this post here! :)

posted by yma @ 04:02 2 comments

bittersweet

i read this...

"Someday this morning would just be a memory."
-paolo coelho

...and was left quiet in an ocean of thoughts for a few minutes.
why?
i don't have one answer to why i chose "bittersweet" as the title of this post and i have more than one answer to why that quote hit me.

note: i'm not a fan of the writer. i haven't read any of his books and have no plans of doing so in the near future.

posted by yma @ 05:01 0 comments

take on songs

the exception:

familiar with the song "fast love" by george michael?
first time i heard that song, i didn't like it at all...the sound was too odd for my liking. the song kept on receiving airplay from the radio and television...and eventually, i learned to like it. the music of the track is part of my 'favorite' list...the lyrics, not so much. it still is 'flawed' which (in a way) makes it perfect that way and that's why i like it a lot. :)

at first glance:

yesterday was the first time i heard the song 'miracle drug' by u2...fell in love with the song the moment i heard it! :)

"The songs are in your eyes, I see them when you smile
I've had enough of romantic love I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up
For a miracle, miracle drug" - miracle drug by u2

packaged:

i was watching ai4-2nd eliminations. constantine just haaad to sing 'i think i love you' a 1970's song by the 'partridge family.' i really don't like songs that sound like that but for some reason...constantine made it sound sooo nice (not very attractive but he's hot!). have you seen him perform on stage? he has PRESENCE! before i go on and on about how great a performer constantine is, i shall end this post...right here!
wait, darn! i talked about constantine...i'm supposed to talk about the song. arsh i got distracted. ANYWAY, bottomline is i now like the song and i'd love to hear it again...so long as constantine would be the one singing it!
note to self: i think i have to take back what i said about not being drawn to guys who can sing well!

posted by yma @ 05:15 2 comments

vaguely concerned

looking forward to...
...a number of things :P

"On the outside they may appear slightly distracted, vaguely concerned about something, and observing their surroundings. On the inside, the planner is working away some secret high-priority agenda."

i just realized that i've been a fan of chantal kreviazuk but i never bought myself a copy of any of her albums. crazy! (some fan!)

posted by yma @ 17:27 1 comments

finding equations

in algebra the equations:
positive x positive
and
negative x negative
both equal to a positive answer

but
positive x negative = negative

do those equations apply to humans too?

friend #1
i was asking one of my girl friends why she and this guy didn't end up together. i think they're perfect for each other. they both possess the same qualities except that the other would possess a quality stronger than the other. she said that they're too much alike that they repel each other.
i was then reminded of how magnets are. have you ever tried putting together 2 magnets that are both positive? they would repel each other right? if you put together a positive end of a magnet and a negative end of a magnet, they stick to each other like glue. i still think they're perfect for each other. :)

friend #2
i think she's perfect with my other guy friend (whom she's in an undescribable relationship with) they compliment each other, they balance each other out, they look good together but they are still not together "together". i know both sides of the story, i have been asked to give advice to their situation (several times), but i still have yet to find the mathematical equation that would best represent their situation and the equation that can solve their mathematical problem.

my equations:

past : positive * positive = positive!
i used to think that i should always be with someone who i had very similar likes and dislikes with. same talents, hobbies, habits etc

present : i'd go after someone i have some similarities with, someone i can get along with very well, i can relate to, someone i can have engaging conversations with about absolutely anything (abstractions, politics, life, jokes etc)...but not someone who is like a male version of me. i have my world (work, circle of friends, likes and dislikes)...i like my world, i'm comfortable in it...but i always want to learn, see new things, i like to wonder and find answers to questions. i'd go for someone who can fit my keywords plus someone who can open a whole new world to me.
here, i am a musician, would i go for a musician too? i'd go for someone who likes music and has knowledge on music but to be a "musician" like myself, probably not. i'd rather be with someone who has another talent and would leave me awed by his own works. i'm a fan of my friends so ofcourse if i'd be in relationship, i'd want to be the number one fan of my partner too.

hmm...i suddenly remembered the karaoke scene in 'my bestfriends wedding'
i like singing and well, i'd like to think i'm pretty good at it. imagine this, if i went to the karaoke with my partner and he sings well too, and it's just us, it would be sooo corny!
change scene: if i could sing and he could barely sing, i could teach him how to hit the right notes, we'd laugh, and he'll appreciate my singing and i'll appreciate his effort to sing! hahaha! yes, crazy thoughts and my imagination is a bit...umm...yeah but well, you get my point! i hope! :)

lack of sleep = fantastic thoughts! fun!

posted by yma @ 15:45 1 comments

why mario?

mario vasquez withdrew from ai4 because of 'personal reasons.' that's all they said 'personal reasons.' he has a lot of fans and that's the only explanation they are giving?! goodness, be a man give us a better explanation!

darn i was just telling my sister that he was the only one that actually looked like an 'american idol.' he's just so charming and he can sing! for now (while he's keeping silent) he isn't that charming anymore..gee

there has to be a twist or at least a very good reason why he left the competition!

note to self : find a new ai4 favorite

posted by yma @ 05:38 0 comments

sunday

last sunday, I watched 'Alex and Emma' it was aired at starmovies
it wasn't bad but it wasn't good either
in the words of randy jackson (american idol) 'It was aright dawg!'

storyline's pretty shallow but there were some parts of the film that actually caught my full attention. so as not to bore any of you with all of the parts (i liked), i'll just post the one that reminded me of something i said to someone.

last part of the film:
"I only have words, that's all I have."
- alex to emma when he changed the ending of his book

end of a relationship:
"would you still turn away if i told you that all of my words still hold true?"

ok...the two lines are not the same. again, so as not to confuse anyone, i was just reminded. why was i reminded? i'd love to explain why but i'm too sleepy to do so! :)

posted by yma @ 04:50 0 comments

almost perfect

so someone asked...and all i said was "what do you think?" and smiled

i won't explain why i'm not in a relationship or why i seldom consider to commit to one. the ones who really know me already know the answer to that. one thing i can say is that i have a number of guy friends who i am very proud of. hmm..now, i am reminded of something i read from the spoilers of a reality tv show that i am following (well trying to follow). in the second to the last episode, it was mentioned that the perfect girl for the bachelor is someone who would possess the key traits of the final three girls. i'm pretty much on the same boat. the guy friends i have, who are very dear to me ('cause i admire them, relate to them, learn from them etc.) each have a special trait that i like very much. now add all the key traits that these friends of mine have and voila the perfect guy for me. :) mind you, not all the key traits these friends of mine have are traits that other girls look for, ok? i have accepted that no one is perfect! some of the personality flaws of some of my guy friends i either a) learned to accept or b) actually find amusing...hence some of these flaws actually fall under the 'key trait' category. :)

then again, as i've mentioned in a previous post...my basis will always be my three keywords :)

yes, it's still 'goodbye to my archetype' but like what my painter friend said "there's nothing wrong with setting standards"
i agree with him! why? because we should never settle for less! :)

posted by yma @ 03:45 0 comments

what is?

"like a smile, when called out the right way, it can calm the crashing waves of ones mind and can warm the coldest nights of ones heart."
- something i wrote over a year ago

- - - - - - - - -
what is this?
this is insane! what is? this!

posted by yma @ 06:39 4 comments

anxious

there's someone i want to see right now but as of the moment, can't. i have so much to say to him. why don't i just call him? it's too impersonal. words are just words. i want to apologize for my mistakes. i'd want him to see the sincerity in my eyes when i say sorry, when i explain myself (something i don't do very often), when i tell him how special he is and that he is beautiful in my eyes. i'd want to say that (to me) he's not at par with anyone because he's on a league of his own. i'm not scared even if i will risk getting hurt because i know that the emotions i have towards this person is real and genuine and strong enough to make me overcome certain things-even pain.

for now, i guess i just have to wait...i hope not too long though

if a wall will ever be built or if there already is a wall between us, i'd want to be able to say the things i've been keeping to myself. why do i want to tell him all these things? to let it go? to set it free? to just simply let him know? or just because...

posted by yma @ 19:00 2 comments

spectacular girls

this week i've had 3 really great conversations with three spectacular friends of mine...no specifics right? so instead i've written short descriptions about them

spectacular girl # 1

she's been my friend since...hmm...since we were little girls? :) i can say so much about her, our memories, changes, life...sooo much but i don't think a simple post like this is enough. what i do want to tell her now is, 'thank you.' we don't talk very often but i'm glad when we do it's always at the right time. the 'insights' you shared with me today, helped! because of that, i am now aware of one of my mistakes and yes, i shall take your advice. :)

spectacular girl # 2

i met her last year, it took months before i actually met her in person. we started of discussing the projects i would present to her and basically it was all about work. then fast forward to several months later, we finally met. the moment i saw her, i just knew. :) i don't trust people very often but she's someone i am able to share my most kept secrets to. thank you so much! thanx for sharing and listening and who would've known that we'd have so much in common. we really have to meet up soon...for work! hahaha right! therapeautic conversations + gossip + work related topics = a fabulous combination!

spectacular girl # 3

she's someone i met through a mailing list. why and how? long story but she lives miles and miles and miles away! hahaha for a long time, she and i exchanged letters via email-sharing our views about work, the music industry etc. back then she was just starting a BIG project. i on the other hand was weighing things-go with my passion or turn my back from it for the rest of my life. after more than a year, we finally graduated to YM- in real time conversations. we still haven't met but it doesn't feel that way at all. i feel like i know her more than the people i've spent more time with. what she doesn't know is that because of her focus on the project she was working on...because she took that gamble with time and her passion...and because she succeeded in reaching her goal, she was able to inspire me to no longer be scared to face a past i turned my back on. she helped me in so many ways and now she's helping me again by making me realize that i'm not the only insane person here! hahaha! deary i don't think we're insane! eccentric perhaps? hahaha we just have so much in common, it's crazy! i wonder what will happen if we worked on a project together...it will be a crazy tandem but it will definitely defy what the norm has been used to. we'll definitely prove that we really rock! :) thank you so much! and thank you for this :)

posted by yma @ 18:36 0 comments

detached

one thing that life has taught me is that on this planet, nothing is permanent. the only thing constant in life is change - everything shifts at the beat of time...we just have to learn to be accustomed to the rhythm. being aware of that, i have learned to avoid being attached to anything and to detach myself from things when necessary.

not to go into specifics:
a few months back, something caught my interest. boggled me why but didn't pose as a threat...so, things were cool. i tried to understand why and how my full attention was caught (when it would actually take a LOT for that to happen). another thing i wanted to know was why, for some reason (whatever i'm talking about) was able to influence a number of things i hold stable in my mind. (post getting cryptic?) anyway, though certain things are hard to explain and maybe we can never find the answers to everything, in the end, what holds true are the genuine feelings we'd have towards things. then again, in my case, if what i feel towards things aren't met halfway or even met, i just detach myself...yup it's a simple as that. defense mechanism? maybe and maybe not.
personally, i don't like people who act like 'martyrs.' no one should! i find it pathetic and really dumb when a person would be extremely nice to someone who would treat them as an invaluable item-like a pebble under the shoe type. i'm not like that (i don't think anyone should be) and i won't allow anyone to treat me that way.
yup, at times, i tend to be mean but only to people who aren't significant to me or has not earned my respect. when i like something, i really like it but when i don't, i don't...it's as simple as that. no gray area when classifying things. i mean, you are classifying something anyway, so make up your mind where to put it. right? on the other hand, if you have no plans of classifying something...you just don't (it's also as simple as that). you don't try to look for a place to put it or whatever because that would defeat the purpose of the 'choice' not to classify something. hmm...if someone who knows me would read this (if they even bothered to), they'd probably say that i am once again contradicting myself...since i already mentioned that i don't believe in 'labels.' let me restate that (so as to avoid any further confusion)...i don't believe in 'exclusive labels' unless bound by something greater than the norm.

still in the subject of the title:
another thing that came in mind was a question a person had about me. i, again, was boggled by the situation. as a result to another boggling situation, i (again) searched for the answer to that particular question.
my answer: half + whole = 1 1/2
that formula can never pose as a threat

what's with the post? well, here...some of my posts are meant to be read or are written for the entertainment of other people. others, i write for myself...my way of rationalizing? probably. or is it more of in the lines of...if i write it for myself, it would be cool but i'd rather post it for my own entertainment.

ok...now, i really must sleep! :)

posted by yma @ 05:40 0 comments

6hrs and counting

i don't sleep very often, when i do, i just sleep for a few hours. when i say few, i mean less than the # of fingers or toes, whichever you prefer :P, you'd have on each hand or foot...to add to the no sleep info, i am also a shallow sleeper. for the past few days, i have been sleeping normally (human normal! again, what's normal to me is sleeping for less than...) and i've been getting real sleep not the half alive type where your senses are still in full function (hearing everything, aware of every movement, smell etc). another thing, since (on a normal basis) i am a shallow sleeper, the moment my slumber is disturbed, i'd be up-like those point-of-no-return situations. yesterday, my sleep was disturbed by a text message, saw who sent it, smiled, then read the message, smiled again, then i fell right back to sleep...like my sleep was never disturbed at all. hmm...maybe 'cause the sender did not register in my brain as someone who would disturb me-that's possible! :)

yesterday morning and evening must be highlighted (in my memory bank)! why? because it has to be! :)

i'm sleepy...better hit the sack before i miss the trip to dreamland (whoa this is way too early for me!). anyway, gnyt!

posted by yma @ 04:20 0 comments

mood

when women would have a drastic mood shift men blame it on the cycle.

today, a couple of guys i know seem to have a weird mood...dunno what to blame. i thought it was just one person but apparently not...

hmm...what moon is it tonight? :)

well, to my guy friends who are having a 'steady' (right!) or not so positive mood today. smile! popogi niyo pa naman! ;)

from your not-so-bolera friend

posted by yma @ 18:03 0 comments

long hair

ok...so not all guys are really annoying...hahaha some are just so annoyingly hot and cute!

i find myself drawn to guys with long hair. well, not really looong hair. let's see...not longer than shoulder length but not shorter than jaw length. there's something about guys who can tie their hair or tuck hair behind their ears. :)

jon johnson is so hot! my jaw dropped when i saw him with part of his hair tied up :)

posted by yma @ 05:40 0 comments

girls, boys, & the 'single'

girls rule...well, me and my girl friends do and we are planning something! something great! something fab! we plan to vule da verld (someday)! :P

things i want to say to a # of annoying guys :
(borrowed from this fab gal)

mr. signature brand exec -
'I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you.'

to the guy that just can't take a hint -
' If I throw a stick, will you leave?'
and
' I'm not being rude. You're just insignificant.'

and last to the closet kwing -
' I'll try being nicer if you'll try being smarter.'

a thought for those who are single:
"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance."
-oscar wilde

posted by yma @ 15:44 0 comments