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this made me laugh...

" no problemo,promote original filipino music (OFM)! raise the roof! itaas ang bandila! at ang bubong! at kilikili! pero mag rexona muna! pero harmful yun sa ozone eh..teka maging sino ka man! i love you..everybreath you take..every move you make..make it! ayus? ayus! count on me to count your money! labo, mag contacts ka! 20/20! walang sense ba? sensimilia meron. pero masama yun kaya wala lang. ambot sa akon kasabad daw mabuang na aketch. oo tama cge na baka mahawa u! on da red corner... wearing bloooo trunks... NO BRIP..."

- it helps sometimes to keep old mail that made you smile/laugh
- who wrote this? i'm not telling :)

clue: part of an established local band

if you would be able to guess who wrote it...then it will be halleluja to you brotha or sister eh hehehe :P

-grinch no more

posted by yma @ 14:15 0 comments

grinch for a day - a feb 14 post

being a self-proclaimed 'grinch of va-len-tines day'
--> seriously why should the day even be celebrated?! i mean, it's not even a holiday. get my point?

ANYWAY...as i was saying, being an anti-celebrating-not-even-a-holiday-day-person (labo) i find it odd that i started the day by listening to tracks from the album 'completely' and then mariah's old tracks (dreamlover anyone?!) and probably end it listening to these songs all over again. :)

what's the point of this post? absolutely nothing! it's a pointless post, posted on this pointless day! hahaha i really have no idea what i'm saying. i'm not even bitter about this day. i just think that it's only what it is because of the power of commercialism. what's wrong with commercialism?! absolutely nothing! :) i'm just not a fan of a day I can't relate to...and even if i ever did (since i have had related to it), i never believed in celebrating this commercialized day anyway. :) ah hahaha round and round the merry go round--- use your brains if you want to understand what i'm saying ;)

ANYWAY instead of expressing angst or pointless thoughts here, what i will do is blog about holding hands. :) a few weeks ago, i was stuck at greenbelt waiting for my ride...and this is what i saw

note: to my friend who i read wrote 'scared' instead of 'sacred' again, my apologies :) yes holding hands is sacred to some degree

Holding hands couple #1
A young couple on probably their first 'official' date. The girl had a flower in hand and her little purse. the boy was holding her hand while they were walking. boy with a sheepish look on their face. :) hehehe
- i was imagining what would have happened if a family friend of the girl encountered them...they would have broke of the holding hands session and dropped the flower. hahaha ok bad! what in the world was i thinking?! but ofcourse they'd get the usual "Hija, where is so-and-so, who are you with Hija?!" ok again...what was i thinking?!

FLASHBACK
I remember being in highschool and hanging out at the village park with this guy who meant a lot to me at that time. I would get so nervous that the family car would pass the park and spot me with him. We weren't doing anything but talk, but still...the fear of being caught alone with a boy kept on hovering around me. hahaha It was fun though! like an adventure everytime he would visit me. We'd hide at the back of the park. anyway...this story ENDS here

Holding Hands couple #2
I was taking the escalator to the Cinemas and there was a foreign couple in front of me. I thought that they were holding hands because they feared they would lose balance but they got to the top (as i had) and they didn't let go. It's so nice how a couple would spend so many years together and travel the world, with each other. hay!

My Cry Cry story
I don't think anyone I've ever really cared about held my hand long enough to want to spend a lifetime with me, what more travel with me right? ok, drama ENDS here

Holding Hands couple #3
Another old couple sat at a nearby table and well, the lola (wife of the lolo hahaha!) bought the lolo icecream (which she had the ladies at chimara reserve for them-nax!). They were eating ice cream and talking about how good it tasted etc WELL, it was a cute scene-a hallmark picture perfect scene. Then they went their way...to watch a film - aww how cute

ok enough of that! :)

so i've been masungit the whole day...until 3 text messages:

I received a happy greeting from someone i least expected one from. Yup he doesn't seem the type who even celebrates the season so...that was a pleasant surprise- thank you!

A funny greeting from joy - 'ah hahaha!' ok that is my reply

and well...ok :)

so end of post. have a pleasant day everyone! i am off to where i am supposed to be off to...grr! the heck am i saying?!

ok so after this post i shouldn't be 'masungit' anymore...i mean hey, i've got my crush balladeer singing to me via my ipod (OK OK so he's not really singing to me...hey a girl can dream right?! sheesh! leave me be! :P

cheeze!

posted by yma @ 15:50 0 comments

music and psychology

i've been listening to a lot of imogen heap's music and music by her group frou frou.

like in a previous post, i still agree with the statement that says that people who aren't very transparent with their emotions, can be easily read through the music they'd be listening to. though it does not apply to all, i still agree with it.

what's the music saying about my mood?

;-)

january 25 boys and girls...see you then!

posted by yma @ 14:20 0 comments

You are invited

posted by yma @ 11:37 2 comments

after months of...

not posting or even trying to maintain this blog, i saw myself visiting it to see what my drama's the past year was. what are my 2006 plans for this blog? I don't know yet, but my next post would probably set the direction

;-)

posted by yma @ 11:26 0 comments

missing

i just feel like writing...speaking but the words aren't coming out the right way.

i'm listening to music...i am moved. i can't understand what the lyrics is trying to tell me but i can hear what it's making me feel.

i'm running away in silence...

standing here waiting...

from one tree hill 'sometimes they come back'

my question is...when they do, what will they be?

posted by yma @ 12:33 0 comments

thinking

there are times when we would exist on the same physical plane as everyone else...on rare occasions we would even be in the same wavelength as they are...but at the end of the day we are just who we are and our world is our own and not theirs. they may be part of at times and one or two of them may be on the same level...but it is still not the same world. one physical plane but several existing worlds.

people and things change, everything is in constant motion...but there are some who just are.

i'd want to say more, i want to explain, but i'll save those words for myself.

'they may no longer be with me but their music lives on...while i still exist in my world.'

posted by yma @ 12:27 0 comments

what's sad is true

on my way to work, i saw this cute white furry dog. to describe her i would say that gathering from the way i saw her, she's old, dirty, and tired. she had a long chain still connected to her neck...probably a chain that used to be stuck to a wall perhaps. she looked tired, hungry, lost, but finally free. watching her standing at the side walk, all weak in the knees debating to herself whether she we cross the street or not, i found myself debating to myself whether i should adopt her or not. she took a step off the sidewalk and when she realized no one was going to harm her, she finally walked faster....she's free. but as the red light turned green and the cars started moving, i found my heart stuck at the moment when i was watching her.

all throughout the ride to work, i was thinking about her, i had questions floating about...whilst being fully aware that no one will be able to answer them...

questions like:
was she happy when she was still a puppy?
was she ever happy?
does she know...who she is? ...what she is? ...where she is from? ...where she is headed?
did anyone ever take care of her? does she know that she is capable of being loved? or that it is okay to love?
if anyone saw her, will they see pass the age and take her home to feed her and clean her up?
is she free because she wants to see the world and experience living without fear before she leaves this planet called earth?

i know, you may think it is silly that after months of not posting a single thing here, i would go on and on about a dog i saw. well think what you want to think then :) i don't mind! did i ever? hehehe

many of you are moved by love stories of a boy meeting a girl and the likes of that. i won't deny the fact that stories such as those would put a smile on my face...and well sometimes true stories (like that of JM Barrie 'finding neveland') was able to make me cry. to be honest with you, i found myself working up a good cry on true stories like about the seal named andre' or about the documentary on panda bears...well yeah whatever works for you right? :)

i'll end this here!

laterz!

posted by yma @ 09:45 6 comments

episode III

star wars: revenge of the sith

the film is better than episode II...i can't compare with episode I (since i didn't see episode I-darth maul is just too freaky) :) episode III is nice, by far my favorite star wars film...but it wasn't 'whoa that was sooo nice' nice (erm...what am i saying?!). i'm not sure if they didn't make it extremely grand so that it will be in conjunct with the old star wars films or...hmm...i can't think of another reason. one thing good about episode III is that it will help give you a better understanding of all the star wars films. i want to say more but i'm too sleepy.

what i will do (for now) is comment on the viewers...
i don't mean to offend anyone but i just felt like sharing. so, we watched the film last may 20 (day after opening night). tickets for the whole day @ greenbelt cinema were sold out before 11am-umm...doesn't matter since they already got tickets for us :) anyway, so we get there after a long hectic day-all wanting to just relax and enjoy the film. it was the first time i went to see a much-anticipated sci-fi film with so many followers, the official day it is shown at the cinemas. culture shock? hmm...let's just say that i didn't know if i was in 'nerdville,' 'average joe city,' or...ok enough! not that i have anything against them...i just don't understand their world and i'm sure they don't understand mine either (which i think can challenge anyones sanity more than theirs). moving on, the whole row in front of us was occupied by...umm...this group of...hehehe and they were talking and talking and talking-as if they just spoke to the characters that morning...sheesh! hmm...come to think it was the first time i watched a film in greenbelt where the viewers were quite noisy. it's a good thing they ALL kept quiet when the film started :)

- i would explain why i even bothered to include that in my post but i don't really feel like explaining. i also don't feel like explaining myself. well, to the ones who know me, i know i need not explain to you ppl :) anyway, it's just a comment and i'm just sharing-take it as is!

OT: 'kingdom of heaven' is still showing...i think i want to see it again. i'm not an orlando bloom fan nor do films such as those often catch my fancy but this film is an exception :)

hmm...seems like someone isn't film deprived anymore...then again i can't say the same for the next month.

i'll end this here...laterz!

posted by yma @ 06:15 3 comments

advice for the guys

some enlightening thoughts from my 'explaining venus' post

vokaluna's take on explaining venus:
she basically says that
1. assumptions = annoyance and an attempt to make an assumption = frustration
2. concluding that a person is dense is the same way as being perceived as being 'too picky' or 'hard to get.'

her tip : guys should be more blunt because if the lady they are after is anything like us (christina and i), she will always be oblivious- why waste your time?

quoting vokaluna:
one thing people can learn from very powerful women who know what they want is: 1) they know what they want
2) nothing is a game
3) when they are loyal they are exuberantly loyal - you will KNOW when they love you My advice to the men out there trying to wait for signs and read into things is: DON'T. Say it like it is. Be blunt knowing that she would be the same way.

'making over the world one straight guy at a time'
- fab 5 motto

posted by yma @ 05:21 0 comments

crazy little thing called love

for the past few weeks, my friend 'vokaluna' and i have been having this on going topic about her 'lovelife.'

this time i am going to write a post inspired by another friend of mine...i'm not mentioning names all i can is that love can turn this girl a little insane...thesaurus please. why? because i say so! :) hehehe!

moving on, here's how the whole thing started. i called her up a few weeks back asking if she'd want me to send pictures of this person she's in a not-quite-relationship with. she refuses to have the photographs sent saying that it will just make her miss him even more. hmm...curious...so i said, 'then i should send you the pix since you miss him!' minutes of persuading her that it would be best to see the recent pictures, she still refused. i've been trying to analyze their setup and relationship for the past year and i'm still boggled by it. i'd ask for the readers opinion but i won't give out details...so again, we will be left with 'hypothetical' answers--which would require even more analysis.

take me for example...i remember that my way of getting over a certain guy i was in-like with when i was 18 years old, was by intoxicating myself with much of him. i'm talking looking at the pictures, recalling conversations, reading text messages/email/notes, looking at all the things he gave me. darn, i even wrote a freaking monologue about that crazy 'intoxication' period. the monologue relays how a girl would put meaning into actions, would read into words, would be downright paranoid by practically everything that involves that particular guy, would feel being both hopeful and hopeless at the same time. did the whole 'intoxicate yourself' strategy work? yes it did...then again there are different factors that contributed to its effectivity. part of the monologue describes how girls would view guys a certain way during the period they are in-like/love with them. the end part of the monologue says that 'too much of everything is a bad thing.' then yeah *snap* and back to reality. i still had a life to live. i also ended the monologue with a note to that particular guy 'it's nice to meet you again.' simply describing that after all the color has been eliminated, you see a better picture of who they are...the person they really are.

dear insane-by-love-friend is probably reading this post right now and is saying 'so what does that have to do with me?!' JUST WAIT! read on...

one time, i had a conversation with my 'myth' he was telling me that falling-in-love sometimes is brought about by a whole package. something like a package of a nicely painted scenario. what he does to determine if it's real or if it's 'getting caught up in the moment,' is by stepping out of the picture for a while. he gives himself time to eliminate the colors and just by seeing her as who she is...since he is no longer looking for a girlfriend, he is looking for a wife--fascinating isn't it?

i am aware that my friend has done that numerous times...and yes, what she's feeling is real. though i am a fan of her and our guy friend...i have to view things from a different perspective. i have to be her friend this time. basically i don't want her to suffer anymore...yes, it is her choice and the decisions to be made about her and that guy are theirs...but that doesn't mean i can't tell her what i think right?

so click here 'There's a Fine, Fine Line' from the Broadway musical 'Avenue Q'

quoting from the synopsis of 'Avenue Q,' that song is sang at the part when
'Meanwhile, Princeton realizes that he is spending so much time with Kate, that he has lost track of his dreams. He breaks up with her, and she wonders whether the relationship was merely a big waste of time (THERE'S A FINE, FINE LINE)'

- similar to what happened to me a few years ago...oh yeah, the drama! am i bitter about that? no, not at all. :) then again, that particular scenario may or may not apply to dear insane-by-love friend.

note to friend: there is a fine line but it really is your decision whether you step forward or backward. whatever your explanation is, your standing is always leaning more towards one side. orayt?

i have yet to know...darn, her relationship with this guy is turning into an on-going teleserye! :P

posted by yma @ 00:45 2 comments

prince charming

last time, i wrote a post about my 'myth.' this time i decided to write about the first male category or type (whichever works for you) that girls fall in love with.

men often wonder why it is such a common thing for the female gender to be in search of their archetype (mr.perfect) or their prince charming. this can be answered by saying 'fairy tale.' ever heard of the book 'all i really need to know i learned in kindergarten' by robert fulghum? there you go! that's the answer i will give you. still don't understand? ok, think of the minds of children as programs, what you feed their brains is processed...not in a matter of seconds but in a matter of years-well, until the subject matter is fully grasped and understood. what i'm saying is that until there are no more questions about a particular subject matter, which is in their subconscious, it will continue to remain there. how does that explain the 'prince charming' girls have in their heads? fairy tales in the form of books, cartoons, anything visual remains in the minds of these children. the first type of men that they would see that they could possibly have a romantic relationship with, would be someone that will be their prince charming. savvy? there are two ways that this thought will be processed as they grow older...that their prince charming exists or that they will come to terms that there is no prince charming. intiendes?

moving on...

have you seen the film 'shall we dance'? not the japanese version (original)! i'm talking about the remake starring richard gere, susan sarandon, and j.lo. i didn't enjoy the film...storyline is too simple. what i do have is a favorite scene!

favorite scene from the film:
susan sarandon was fixing the setup at the place where she's working (mall?)...then here comes richard gere, going up the escalator looking all dashing in his suit, with flowers in hand, and goes up to her.

yup, i like that scene a lot. i mean imagine, you are working really hard and here comes your prince who can literally make you feel weak in the knees and will take you away from all the stress and chaos of work.

after watching the film, i told myself that that was a scene i'd want to see in real life. have i? what do you think?! would i write about it if i haven't? :)

prince charming part 1

my favorite true to life scene from the recent past:

it was at the powerplant mall gig...we were located at a nice area and our little stage was directly in front of the escalator (well, ok a few feet away but still...). i would always look at the escalator waiting for my friends to go up from there to catch the set. anyway, so i was growing weary waiting and decided to just give the set my all with or without their presence. i mean some of them came already (a lot earlier)...i should be gracious that they even came. :) back, back to the story. so, i'm singing right? then i see this huge bouquet of flowers and this tall guy all dressed up. he was wearing all white...white long sleeved polo (folded 3/4), fishermans pants, and white slippers (flipflops). i thought in my head 'this guy can dress!' the clothes he wore really fit his height and built. ok, so i noticed his clothes first. hehehe! when i looked up at his face his hair was all fixed and he looked really good...not handsome but i found him very attractive. yes, he took my breath away at that moment. :) weird thing is i noticed that the few times he glanced at our stage was when he saw the plastic bag i used to carry my clothes, the top i was wearing, and...hmm that's all...i was too shy to look at him. :) why? i have my reasons. hehehe! then i looked at my sister who was signalling at me, pointing at that guy. darnit, she knew him! hahaha! she mouthed his name and i felt my jaw drop. the guy whose picture i saw in her college yearbook looked a lot different in person! i remember asking my sister (upon seeing the picture) 'that guy was a hearthrob?! you must be kidding!' ok, i ate my words! upon knowing who he was, i understood why he noticed the bag and my top. so, he's the prince charming of the girl he brought the flowers to, nice right? :)

off topic comedy moment:
so i saw that guy (i'm not naming names!)...i'll name him 'richard' for now. why richard? i have two reasons...1) how i saw him, reminded me of my fave scene in 'shall we dance' 2) i'm not telling because it's too obvious and you'll know who i am talking about :P moving on...i was singing a common electro-house song and guess what, i forgot the lyrics all of a sudden. a former, was at my back making comments about me forgetting the lines...and yes, i was stopping myself from laughing. :P

prince charming part 2

my story:

it was at another gig, i wanted someone to be there sooo badly but that person couldn't make it. the next best thing would be seeing my friend from the oversees who i was not counting on to make it...why? he's from the oversees, he's one busy busy guy and i was up against so many people for his attention and time. vocally, i was doing a great job that night...how could i not, i was imagining them both there. :) i already reached the middle of my set and i gave up on the thought that my friend would even make it. then from where i was, i see this dashing guy enter the venue. he was all dressed up and he was looking straight at me. it was my dear dear dear friend! he went to me and ofcourse greeted me. all the girls in the venue were looking at him and yeah i was thinking in my 'ha! he's here to see me!' rest of the story is mine to keep. that night he was my prince charming, he saved me from disappointment and a bit of sadness. oh the drama! hahaha

best part of the story was the ride home, my older sister was telling me that while i was singing, he was telling her how proud he was of me and that he was really enjoying my set.

i can say that this friend of mine is the real deal, he's probably the prince charming of many many many girls out there or here. i'm proud of him too not just because of how he carries himself but how he is as a person. one day he will find his princess and i will be there cheering for them.

prince charming part 3

have i found my prince charming? i don't know but i've had my fairy tale moments. am i waiting to find that one guy who will be able to take my breath away, make my heart beat so fast and make it skip a beat the moment i see him, or make me feel weak in the knees and light headed just by the thought of him? no i'm not waiting for that moment to come. if it happens, fantastic, i'll be one lucky girl...if not, then i'm still one very lucky girl. :) the moment that i'm talking about happened already, a long time ago, it's unexplainable but he's no longer my prince. he's not my shining star either. do i have a shining star? yes i do but not a prince charming. i wrote a post about a prayer...subject of the post is 'ho ritrovato,' that would answer what i am looking for.

it's good to dream...it's an inexpensive past time...just don't get caught up in dreamland while you still have a reality to live.

off topic:

Oh wait wait!!! i just had to share! about the guy who went up the escalator, the one i named 'richard' in this post...so i was surfing the net the other night. one of those random net surfing moments. i happened upon some photos posted at a photo blog...it was from a photoshoot taken the same night of my mall gig. lo and behold there he was! wearing the exact outfit he wore that day. :) to my girl friends, if you want to see the pic, let me know, i'll send you the link ;)


'til the next post, take care dearies!

posted by yma @ 00:34 3 comments

delayed reaction

sensory overload - hard work paid off...despite the technical problems and unavoidable factors that were going on during the night of the event, it still turned out to be a success! (will post about the event soon)

1st mall gig - let's just say i was psyched!

birthday - gracious! :)

current (freelance) projects - different but change is always good...i think! why think? know! nyrz

day job - two cheques...i'm not complaining!

a friend and his day job - someone is now addressed as 'sir' or 'mister' hehehe!

my se - is old and is in need of a new battery!

muvo - so cool!

prime minister blair - 3 consecutive wins! yey!

kingdom of heaven - by far the best orlando bloom film i've seen
(might post something about the film soon)

the items i want - i'm falling in love with them and i'm determined to have them soon! waitaminute...i should think positively to attract the positive vibe...let me rephrase one of my statements...'i will have them soon!' :)

posted by yma @ 05:10 0 comments

myth

READ FIRST: if you plan to read this, make sure you'll read it to the end. it's not a post of a girl gushing over some guy...seriously, read the whole thing...you'll understand why when you reach the end.

during my high school years, i would hear my older sister and her girl friends speak highly of a particular guy. they would say that he's really attractive, intelligent, kind, interesting...well, you get the picture. i mean you know how it is when girls talk about guys and describe them as if they were close to being 'the perfect' guy. i have to admit, the description caught my interest and i really wanted to know who this person really was. it is a known fact that a number of girls (including my dear sister) joined the same org he belonged to because of him and his friends (girls talaga!). since that particular university was far and i was busy with my own school activities, i never got to attend any school function my older sister would have...hence not giving me a chance to take a glimpse of this guy. finding out that he was going to graduate already i begged my sister to show me pictures of him-since i doubted that i'd be seeing him in the near future. one day, she brings home pix and what do i see? blurred side view photographs, him far from the camera and barely seen, a silhouete-too bad for me huh? a few years later, his parents became close family friends of ours...in fact, at one point, they frequented at the house we used to live in. not really being 'game' to any family-to-family interaction (unless they were the family of my friends), i could care less but i was still curious who this guy really was. on several occasions, my sister would point him out and then when i'd look, i'd see a guy with his back turned; on one account a door closing (where he supposedly entered); then on the highway, him going out of the car and exchanging seats with another guy. in short and simple language, i felt that he never existed and that it was a conspiracy that i was made to believe that such a guy ever existed. he was a myth to me and like all myths, they exist only somewhere in ones imagination-besides they are based from reality or some truth right? :) fast forward to 2005 'in a coffeeshop, in a city, like every coffeeshop in every city' (ok that came from an ani difranco song!) my sister told me to glance at my back because he was there, seated right behind me. i was hesitant to look at him. why? he was my myth, if he was less than what i have imagined him to be, i would be disappointed and if he was exactly the way i pictured him to, i might...i don't know, freak out?! i looked back and...and...ok, physically, he fit my 'myth.' hmm...let me think back again...ok, not quite but it's because he changed his hair do-ah! i met him that same night (don't ask how, it's just too funny a story or situation to relay) and i don't know what happened to me while i was talking to him. i'm a confident person but i stuttered, thought out loud (again, don't ask what i said), i couldn't wipe a smile off my face, and i sort of wasn't aware of what my actions were. just to clarify, i didn't throw myself at him or flirt! what i meant by 'not being aware of my actions' would be that i was so ashamed of 'stuttering and thinking-out-loud' that when we were going to pass in front of him, i clung for dear life at my friend. besides, my friend was making fun of what i did...his question 'nag-wala o nag-kalat ka?' which my sister replied without hesitation 'nag-kalat!' then he replied telling me 'nakakita ka lang ng gwapo nag-kalat ka na' then he laughed. i was embarassed! you know how you get weak in the knees when you get embarassed? well, that happened. ok enough of my excuses. what happens after? i was teased for changing tones everytime he called-come on people, i mean look, when you call someone, you expect the person who'd answer the phone to sound pleasant right? well, i try to sound as pleasant as i can when i answer calls...even if prior to answering i would be having a serious-leaning-towards-angry discussion with some people. why do i do that? see, i am aware that the caller wouldn't know what my current mood would be and that he/she is not part of that discussion...so why should i pass the mood to him/her right? moving on to my story...so my check list:

handsome - check
friendly - check
very helpful - check
talented - check
kind - check
interesting - check
supportive - double check
my type - hmm...leaning towards it but not quite

as i got to know him, 'my myth' was slowly transforming itself to being an ordinary person. in fact, i found myself noticing someone else as i got to know him. someone more real to me and is capable of...nevermind 'cause that's a different story (which i don't feel like sharing just yet). anyway, i found myself slowly losing the picture i had in my head of my myth. there was even a point where i was sort of annoyed at him-he's a nice guy but he's just as flawed as every other guy i would meet. then we don't really connect at certain levels...that's why even if i've known him for several months now, i'm still not comfortable to share my own stories with him. as opposed to someone i met late last year, who, in an instant, i was very comfortable with-i'm talking, things i would never relay to some of my close friends, i told him by conversation #2.

why did i suddenly make a post about this guy? you're probably thinking 'if you don't like him that way, why did you even bother to make a looong post about him? fact that you took the time to do that...' whatever matter-of-factly thought you might be thinking, keep it to yourself and let it go. :P i made this post to state a point but the reader must use their heads to understand what the lesson of this post is.

o, does my sister still think highly of this guy? no. she doesn't. why? well, minus all the color and finally seeing him in black and white...i don't really feel like explaining. maybe next time. if you get what i'm trying to say then kudos to you, you are one intelligent person. hehehe!

PART 2
yesterday, my sister and i were talking about guys who mobilize using those handsome looking bikes. for some reason, she started talking about this biker guy from (you guessed it right) her college university. she and her friends called this artist-biker dude 'swagger.' why the nickname...well obviously because he 'swaggers' and because of the way he carries or projects himself. she told me that when he would ride his bike, no matter how annoyed they are by his bearing or the way he would carry himself, they couldn't help but would secretly swoon when they'd see him riding of with his bike. so again, i could care less...until my sister said 'would you believe me if i told you that looks wise, he's a combination of _____ and _____' i'm not mentioning names but i care about these two guys and to me, they are both very attractive. question: is he my new myth? no he's not. am i curious, yes but see, i learned my lesson. i'm thinking he may be this great guy but he may not turn out to be all that to me.

i'm a fan of some of my guy friends, i'm very proud of them. they are outstanding people and are exceptionally talented at their chosen field. they are respectable and carry themselves very well. without exaggerartion, they are very attractive and can clean themselves up real nice (that is if they don't already on a daily basis). they are good people and i can just tell them anything. i connect with them at different levels and care about them. why should i try to search for wonderful guys to meet when i have friends like them? ok so the guys that i'm talking about are hmm...let's see less than 5 people? hehehe why would i want a myth?! maybe a prince charming hehehe like the way my friends are perceived by some girls. see, these guys keep me believing that in this crazy crazy world, there are still wonderful people and that i'll never know maybe the person i am looking for is out there (or here)...i wouldn't know - well, not just yet.

understand? 'til my next post, have a pleasant morning, noon, and night time-ok that came from another song...i can't help myself! :)

posted by yma @ 05:40 0 comments

explaining venus

where do i begin? hmm...let's see, over a month ago, i was catching up with a close guy friend. boggled by the female ways, he decided to ask questions about the female psyche. obviously, answers to questions on situations will all be hypothetical unless the whole situation was followed or studied in detail. I asked my friend to share the whole story since I had enough time to study the details. the whole story is very long, since it was relayed in detail...so here's my version of 'explaining venus to mars'

situation:
he likes this girl (a lot). he has been doing everything for her but she's been unresponsive to his actions. he didn't know if he was being led on or if she liked him. he asked her friends what his true standing is and she was open to them about her feeling towards my friend-she liked him, a lot. the question of my friend is if she really liked him how come she's not responding to his actions.

my question:
did you actually tell her what your intentions are? did you drop an obvious hint that you want to be more than friends? does she know that you are not like that with every other close girl friend you have?

his answer:
'no' to all

my analysis:
note: i shared with him my own situations to be able to explain my answer.
basically, i told him that girls nowadays don't want to be assuming. we're very careful to whom we'd have deep feelings for. we don't want to read into the actions of guys too much because they'd have their own set of explanations to their actions. it would be disappointing if their explanation would be far from ones expectation or assumption.

I said that guys and girls like to 'test the waters'-side note: guys do that more often than girls. as i was saying, we test the waters before we make a conclusion. then again (unless one is really an assuming person) the conclusion will remain a hypothesis unless it has been proven to be true based on several accounts. oh goodness, first i explain relationships through mathematical equations now through solving experiments!

Moving on, after sharing to my friend my own set of stories he said that i give guys a hard time.
mass/volume = density
interesting analysis but i still insist that i am not dense. i just don't want to read into actions too much (or should i say anymore?). I'm not dense I'm just not 'an assuming person.' look, everyday we solve problems, sometimes we are not aware of the problems we unconsciously solve. in an hour we are required to make so many decisions. by the end of the day, our mind is tired. even if we just stayed on our desks the majority of the day, we become tired-i'm talking physically drained, not only mentally. why? go figure! i don't have to explain that anymore. at the end of the day, it's one thing to look back at the events of the day and replay it in your head and it's another to think things over and over and over. if you'd have to analyze every single situation you've encountered during your day, the 7hours you alot for sleep will not be enough. so, why complicate things right? take things as they are. if it's not that important then don't make unwanted stress eat up the remaining energy you have. if you allow that to happen, you'll run on empty and turn catatonic-okay exag but you get it right? sure i am guilty of the same crimes of every other person who thinks too much but see if your mind is strong enough to solve all those 'daily' problems and can make you act upon situations, then it should be strong enough to allow your mind to just stop and rest. besides, studies show that one can practice the whole day and still won't be able to perfect what he's studying unless one rests. during rest, his mind (at the unconscious state) will replay the events of the day and continue learning...hence you are still studying but in a more relaxed manner. ever try to solve a problem to a situation and not being able to find the answer? then you decide to sleep and when you wake-up you know exactly what to do? well, there.

umm...yeah i strayed from the topic but it's informative right? i could explain more but i won't...well, not now! hehehe

ok, back to the topic. i am not dense. i just don't want to be bothered with thoughts that may give me unwanted mental, emotional, or physical stress. umm...ok...there are some things or situations that i would say can inevitably give me that amount of stress and will either make me temporarily narcoleptic (literally passing out to sleep just by the thought of it) or make me extremely compulsive (move, move, move)-most of the time compulsive with work or cleaning. :) see here's the thing, the ones that may cause me that type of stress from over thinking would be the things that are very important to me. things that i am most passionate about or take extra care of.

there, i have explained myself.

back to the story:
i explained to my friend that i can compliment a person and notice details but it's basically my way of making a person aware of the nice features he or she may have. i may go out of my way to do things for other people but i doubt i'd give a person a hard time by giving them reasons to make them read into my actions. yes, actions speaks louder than words but again what if a person is naturally nice? more often than not, i would explain myself. if i don't well, they shouldn't read into my actions too much. ask if they must, i will answer without holding back on information (like if my feelings are deeper BUT again it is safe not to 'assume.' consult, ask, but it's best not to assume. when you assume, you hope, sometimes when you hope, you expect. so, just take things as they are and wait for affirmation. if direct affirmation doesn't come your way, there is always the 'lab report' style. hehehe

my friend and i were both sort of enlightened by the explanations we gave each other. we ended the conversation by sun up. both thankful, we learned to be more understanding to the opposite sex.

After resuming my daily routine, i checked my phone and received a text message from him
text :
DBD don't be dense

i laughed because i knew what he was referring to. maybe i learned to be less dense after that conversation.

my reply:
MAM make a move

i know it made him laugh and somewhat inspired to explain himself to that girl he liked. what happens to them next...well, we just have to wait and see.

from the musical 'avenue q'
'A mix tape. He made a mix tape. He was thinking of me, which shows he cares! Sometimes when someone has a crush on you they'll make you a mix tape, to give you a clue.'
- 'mix tape' sang by kate monster

---> cute right? in my case, i'd give someone a mix of the songs i like, not because i am trying to say something, more of, i am sharing what i like.

hmm...but when we share something important to us, with someone else, we share a bit of ourselves to that person.

question:
why would we share something important to us to someone who isn't equally important or dear to us? :)
- i know i won't! :)
then again, there is also a difference between saying...um wait, i'll end this here! i'll save that thought for another post. information overload!

laterz!

posted by yma @ 19:14 3 comments

out of circulation

...for a couple of weeks

'no matter what or where you are.
you’ll always be my little shining star'
'what if I...leave this place?
what if I dropped out of the race?
what if I traveled around the world and only see your face?'
- abra moore 'shining star'

posted by yma @ 04:26 0 comments